suzyscottdotcom (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
suzyscottdotcom) wrote2008-01-03 01:40 pm
suzyscottdotcom) wrote2008-01-03 01:40 pm
Entry tags:
Suzy’s feelings for the start of 2008
This is maybe not quite a full-blown ‘state of the Suzy’ and not quite a ten-point list, but this is how things are right now.
The recovery is going very well, and I’m down to the two slight problems previously mentioned (which will no doubt be looked at a week on Saturday when I am in for the follow-up). Caroline is restarting her diet tomorrow, and is hoping for surgery late April-early May. I’m going up to Dundee again in a fortnight (just booked another £4.00 round trip Cambridge – Dundee – which would have cost up to £67 – and up to four times that by train!), and I am planning on moving out of the flat (in Dundee) in the Spring, with a bit of luck before C’s op.
Yes, we are both very happy, and very lucky to have each other. I know. So, why am I getting any number of random weird feelings? Crying (despite being happy), tiredness, unable to sleep, feeling more easily worn or stressed, forgetting things, balance and clumsiness, etc. – you get the idea. These all sound very familiar. I've seen this before.
What I’m trying to say is that these things are now rearing their head in my life right now. They may disappear again, but it’s not looking like it. They may be caused by something else, which I don’t fully understand. I could come up with any number of alternatives, or I could face the reality – the ‘early symptoms’ of HD really seem to be stacking up for me. I did warn you that it was only a matter of time!
I remember had a bit of an exchange of comments withelaine4queen the other day re our bodies doing things, and not doing things, that we’d expect.
I’m happy with things, and very happy with Caroline. It may not seem that way on the outside. Mind you, what you see on the outside is slowly becoming less like me. Eventually it will get worse. I’m not seeking sympathy or anything else, just a little bit of understanding from time to time. Over the coming weeks, I’d like to continue things as they are now. Support C through her diet, and run-up to surgery, as she did for me.
We’ve now been together for nine full months, as at 31/12/2007, and the days are counting well into our tenth! I’ve bought a day-by-day calendar for here on the desktop, yet I’m still (currently) lost with the days!
Hormones – well, I’m not strictly sure if this is self-medding or not, but I get 84 estradiol valarate pills per month at the moment. I said I’d stay on the dose of 2 per day until the end of the year, and I ramped it up to 3 per day in the last few days of 2007. This means that for one week in a month, I am 33% self-medding… but that might be irrelevant if the nice side-effects continue, as I may put on a little bit more. I do like what it’s doing to my body, especially around the chest… I have the body of a 29 year old transwoman – the mind of a 35 year old or so – and now, the boobs of a 10 year old! LOLZ!!!1!
Oh yeah, and I officially turn 29 in thirteen days time, but I already feel much older! (Now you see why).
The recovery is going very well, and I’m down to the two slight problems previously mentioned (which will no doubt be looked at a week on Saturday when I am in for the follow-up). Caroline is restarting her diet tomorrow, and is hoping for surgery late April-early May. I’m going up to Dundee again in a fortnight (just booked another £4.00 round trip Cambridge – Dundee – which would have cost up to £67 – and up to four times that by train!), and I am planning on moving out of the flat (in Dundee) in the Spring, with a bit of luck before C’s op.
Yes, we are both very happy, and very lucky to have each other. I know. So, why am I getting any number of random weird feelings? Crying (despite being happy), tiredness, unable to sleep, feeling more easily worn or stressed, forgetting things, balance and clumsiness, etc. – you get the idea. These all sound very familiar. I've seen this before.
What I’m trying to say is that these things are now rearing their head in my life right now. They may disappear again, but it’s not looking like it. They may be caused by something else, which I don’t fully understand. I could come up with any number of alternatives, or I could face the reality – the ‘early symptoms’ of HD really seem to be stacking up for me. I did warn you that it was only a matter of time!
I remember had a bit of an exchange of comments with
elaine4queen the other day re our bodies doing things, and not doing things, that we’d expect.I’m happy with things, and very happy with Caroline. It may not seem that way on the outside. Mind you, what you see on the outside is slowly becoming less like me. Eventually it will get worse. I’m not seeking sympathy or anything else, just a little bit of understanding from time to time. Over the coming weeks, I’d like to continue things as they are now. Support C through her diet, and run-up to surgery, as she did for me.
We’ve now been together for nine full months, as at 31/12/2007, and the days are counting well into our tenth! I’ve bought a day-by-day calendar for here on the desktop, yet I’m still (currently) lost with the days!
Hormones – well, I’m not strictly sure if this is self-medding or not, but I get 84 estradiol valarate pills per month at the moment. I said I’d stay on the dose of 2 per day until the end of the year, and I ramped it up to 3 per day in the last few days of 2007. This means that for one week in a month, I am 33% self-medding… but that might be irrelevant if the nice side-effects continue, as I may put on a little bit more. I do like what it’s doing to my body, especially around the chest… I have the body of a 29 year old transwoman – the mind of a 35 year old or so – and now, the boobs of a 10 year old! LOLZ!!!1!
Oh yeah, and I officially turn 29 in thirteen days time, but I already feel much older! (Now you see why).